Trusting mySelf

ATTENTION: THIS UNIT IS SELF-TIMED AND WILL SHUT DOWN AUTOMATICALLY AT THE END OF ITS CYCLE. IT WILL RESET ITSELF.
— West Valley YMCA Notice on the SuitMate Machine
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During my swim yesterday, I was very focused on the concept of radical self-responsibility. And how to lean into and feel that in my body and what that looks like. And the word, TRUST in all caps keeps coming to the surface. Especially when I read the PSA on the SuitMate machine that extracts water from my bathing suit after each swim! How wise of the SuitMate to remind me!

I am the automatic unit that is self-timed and will shut down automatically at the end of my cycle. I have the ability to reset myself! We all have this ability—That’s just who we all are as human beings with bodies, minds, and souls.

Currently, through meditation, I’m learning how to lean into and feel that in my body and what that looks like.  And the word, TRUST in all caps keeps coming to the surface.  The word TRUST is part of my school’s, core values.  The values are Trust, Respect, Responsibility, Honesty, Caring, and Diversity.  We repeat these words every day in our Creed and we name them as our core values, “….because our days are priceless.”

As a school community, we repeat these core values every morning at flag.  It’s kind of rushed and mumbled through--barely audible and usually not a memorable recitation.  The rushing is part of the energy I feel pretty consistently. In my own life, I feel an ever-present pressure to rush.  There is usually a race against time that I’m feeling. And a complete distrust in life’s organic processes.

 Meditation is such a relief from this pressure and the FOMO that seems to motivate our choices.  Because of this relief sensation, I’m feeling a call to bring more meditation practices to my community, my work community specifically, as a partnership to honoring the words in our core values. 

When I feel that energy of “rush, RUSH, RUSH, GET IT DONE, GET IT DONE, MOVE ON TO THE NEXT THING, FIT IT IN, FIT IT IN!” and the chaos of transition, when I feel that, it zaps a lot of energy out of me.  I suspect I’m not alone in this. And when I truly drop into breath and go inside, access the grounding cord that meditation has to offer, I can sink into the Trust of knowing that everything happens just as it should--it’s perfect just the way it happens.  When I meditate, I’m making a choice to trust that I have everything I need inside of me.  I am the automatic unit that is self-timed and will shut down automatically at the end of my cycle. I have the ability to reset myself! We all have this ability—That’s just who we all are as human beings with bodies, minds, and souls.

Our bodies have such wisdom.  Our Ego likes to tell us what we are conditioned to believe; that it’s our mental body that has all the wisdom, discrediting our other forms of intelligence.  However, it’s our physical, energetic, and emotional bodies that have the most powerful and potent wisdom if we listen.  If I am hi-jacked by the mental body that is always pressed for time, then I am ignoring the wisdom that is inherent in my soul, which is composed of all of me--my physical, energetic, and emotional parts included. Also, I want to be clear that the mental body is totally important.  Managing time is important because it is part of our collective 3D reality.  However, when we lack the trust in ourselves and tell ourselves that we don’t have time to slow down and breathe, we suffer from anxiety and our cortisol levels are spiked.

I want to share that, when I Trust, when I completely trust in my ability to go inside and drop into a breath, I am telling my whole body:  mental, physical, emotional, energetic--I’m telling my whole being that I trust ME.  I feel such a huge shift when I can lean into that hammock of trust.  This sign this morning reminded me of that. 

It also reminds me of a quote from one of my mentors, Elisha Clark Halpin:

Every Breath Connects, Every Breath Completes

Our integrated bodies are like every breath.